I hate looking forward to stuff.
I’m not talking about your standard forward-looking, of course – that’s all fine and good and nothing really to worry about. I was looking forward to the Steve Martin concert I went to a couple of weeks ago and that wasn’t a problem at all.
What is a problem I guess is that I’m 26 and still have that childlike excitement over getting new things. Oh, the new things are a little more grown up (usually), but that excitement that generally only comes with being about 8 (and not, like me, a cynical bastard) is still there.
That childlike excitement I suffer from can, at times, cause me to cease being a fully functional person. A few months ago whilst waiting for the iPad 2 I think for a while I had decided that it was fundamentally important to everything I was trying to accomplish and so couldn’t achieve anything without it.
The other issue is when I’m really looking forward to something I find myself unable to think of anything else. Whilst I was waiting for the iPad 2’s release day (and the extra week after the release date before I managed to get my hands on one) the majority of my conversations with my wife were about what I was going to do when it arrived, how I saw the arrival day going, and also how it was going to enrich our lives. Usually when I do that, my wife doesn’t really care; either because I’m waffling on about something she neither understands or cares about, or – in the case of the iPad 2 at least – she already had an original iPad and so knew how wonderful it was.
The final issue with looking forward to things is wishing away days. At the very beginning of March when the iPad 2 was announced, with a UK release date set for some time near the end of March, I found myself rather wishing that March would get the hell on with things because April was suddenly looking a lot rosier.
It’s not so bad when it’s only a month, but I’m also really rather looking forward to Jurassic Park coming out on Blu-ray in October, which is a little further off. Fortunately for that it’s far off enough that that childlike excitement I keep meaning to look up a synonym for doesn’t quite get hold, and chances are I will have forgotten about the whole thing by the time it arrives on my doorstep.
Still, I’m currently really rather excited about my other new toys, which should hopefully be arriving next week.